Thursday, February 9, 2012
Recently, I've come out of a period of Mama guilt, which is probably why I haven't been blogging much here. I had realized that if the Waldorf police came over to my house, I would probably be arrested! Storytelling was falling away. Painting day, where did that go? Baking, whenever we happen upon it. Winter Festivals? Which were those? Yes, I have let it all go but the basics. We were down to just learning our letters through read aloud fairy tales! (gasp!) That might be just fine, but the reason I decided to home school was to bring this beautiful Waldorf world to my children. After a hefty dose of pure liquid Mama guilt, I think I may have learned a few things.
First, I need to forgo the guilt, it doesn't help. Second, I need to give myself a little bit of a break. My dear Owen is two as many of you know, which is a fun and demanding age. I gave up painting day because it was frustrating, baking became whenever Owen was asleep or occupied. And festivals? Ugh, I became tired just thinking about them.
But wait, Valentine's Day is coming up! I've brought out the melted crayon hearts, the garlands, the vases & Valentine's we made last year. Suddenly I want to make heart shaped candles and Valentine's Day cookies! I'm re-energized! Why, because I love Valentine's Day. It's always been apart of my life, my childhood and I enjoy it. Looking back through the past year we have celebrated many of the Waldorf festivals. And the ones we really celebrated with gusto were the ones I understood well, truly imbibed and made apart of my thinking. Once that happens, celebrating becomes so easy, natural and fun! Like celebrating Valentine's Day, it's effortless, just a natural outpouring of a full spirit!
I've realized that I cannot absorb all of Waldorf education in an instant. That I do have many years of Waldorf homeschooling ahead of me and plenty of time to get to all of the projects I want to get to. I've realized knitting will come, storytelling is much easier for me than it used to be. I've realized that what festivals I do get to will be even more natural and fun to celebrate next year. And that the ones we haven't gotten to yet will be fun to explore in the years to come. I'm learning to breathe a little and give up the idea of a "perfect" Waldorf home. What is that anyway? It's so easy to compare ourselves to everyone else and feel we're somehow not measuring up. I do feel like a bit of a lone ship out here in Neverland. We are the only Waldorf home schoolers in our town (that I know of) and there is no Waldorf school close to us. So, like many of you maybe, I am learning this method all on my own, with my books and my internet! I need to be a little kind to myself.
This week, I renewed our sense of rhythm. I made an effort to tell stories, we baked and did crafts together. And ya know, it really wasn't exhausting but it was truly rewarding.
We made play dough from the Festivals, Family & Food book.
The boys made letters, shapes, textures and sculptures or "creations" as they call them.
We used the play dough to make a sort of mold for pouring candles. I just saw this method on a blog very recently and now I can't find the post. If anyone knows, please do tell me so I can reference the blog post here.
I made this one with a tp roll creased to make a heart.
A beeswax ornament. Mmmm, they smell so good!
The finished candles.
A few fun play dates and dinner with a friend. And much more. It was a good week and I feel like we're "back" in terms of truly enjoying the spirit of Waldorf learning.
We also had a wonderful and pivotal day, today, in learning to read! I'll be writing more on that soon!
Until next time...